Carmen's journey

Monday, September 12, 2005

1st Sweating, 2nd Sweating, 3rd Sweating
















Just can't believe I was dripping down with sweat after leading singspiration in the Sunday service. I wiped it off from my forehead to my face and sat at the front row quietly. It is hardly to be understood why I'm so fear, I wish I will be able to over come it from time to time but seems there is very little improvement in the past 3 years.

It reminds me once Dr. Choi had shared he still feels the inner fear every time when he speaks in public, although he has been doing this over 30 years. "Keep this fear for you to learn to take your serve seriously, keep this fear so that you know your trust in the Lord". This is the conclusion I heard from him.

I will remember my fear...
remember to keep a clean life to serve...
remember to learn to worship Him in daily life, both on the stage and behind the scene...
remember it is serious to serve the Lord...
remember my inadequacy so I know my faith...

posted by Carmen Mok at Monday, September 12, 2005

5 Comments:

  • Dear Carmen,
    I know what you mean. I wish I have that fear more often, to be honest with you. =P But then, standing on the stage is totally different from standing in front of Joshuaians only. =)

    BTW, thanks for the talk we have last week, it helped me a lot. =)

    Princess

    By Blogger 公主, at 12 September, 2005  

  • Carmen,

    I like the conclusion you got about your fear. It's so true that the worst senario for worship leader is to feel too comfortable and too confident. The congregation are always nice and positive. But more important is God doesn't really care whether you said something wrong, or mess up the procedure. I believe the only thing he cares is our hearts .. nothing else.

    Quote of the song "Heart of Worship":

    I'll bring You more than a song
    For a song in itself
    Is not what You have required
    You search much deeper within
    Through the way things appear
    You're looking into my heart

    I'm coming back to the heart of worship
    And it's all about You
    All about You, Jesus
    I'm sorry, Lord, for the things I've made it
    When it's all about You
    All about You, Jesus

    Monica

    By Anonymous Anonymous, at 13 September, 2005  

  • Princess, I do enjoy our chat and dinner, thanks for listening my story as well. =)

    By Blogger Carmen Mok, at 13 September, 2005  

  • Mon, Heart of Worship is one of my favorite songs. Thanks for remind me this song again, it is hanging in my mind today. =)

    It is so true that being a Christian for so many years, we are experienced in perform well in front of ppl. But more importantly is what's the true side in God's eyes. If I serve only because for my own credit? or for all about Jesus.

    And I'm so thankful of having you as my friend, we're always making echo from each other. =)

    By Blogger Carmen Mok, at 13 September, 2005  

  • Thanks Carmen. I'm thankful to have you as my friend too!! =)

    Mon

    By Anonymous Anonymous, at 14 September, 2005  

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